frustrating

sometimes i feel that i am just a voice,

that no body hears,

like a beautiful tune,

that dies in deaf ears.



its good to cry in the shower,

absent are my tears,

i cant even tell....

and so are my fears.



why cant i just be,

with having to have some one love me.

its frustrating.

love.



its like anything anybody could want in life,

is dangled before them,

and you work at it but you just dont know,

over and over again.



i want to shine,

and be truly free,

him and me or just me.





why do i feel unheard?

why does it hurt so bad?

it seems absurd.



im tired, and deserving,

and there is no reason why not,

except for the bad feeling,

and feeling distraught.



i always wonder how do we bounce back from this fight, and that fight.

i dont know.