on the rocks

absents from my own soul and mind,
does not make the heart grow fonder,
all that it does is makes me doubt and my eyes kinda wonder...

you deny me because im sexual?
open?
because im different?
am i so different?
and if i am should i not be held high,
not down.

to the best of my ability,
i try to stay,
but i wont let you make me cry anymore,
what is faith?

you come you go,
the cycle continues,
why wont you claim it?
i know what I'm worth,
i know what you are worth.
when you try.

be gentle with me,
unconditionally,
because i love you
you dope, you have the world by the balls!

if you are unable to recognize,
stop being so scared,
i am here,
don't push me away, look in to my eyes.
not away. ......

I will NOT do this forever.
this is not a threat,
as you may think,
it is my own resolution,
to possibility.

having a love like you again...
never. no one but you,
but i will not do this forever
and i will be happy in my life.