- Last week was pretty much finals week, i had a small presentation for my English class that went some what awkward ....(I thought about my English Professor in ways that maybe i shouldn't.... i am a notty girl;)) but i think it went maybe a little better than average. So i was walking down the hall toward my next class, comfortably reflecting on the year in my own world as i often do, and out of the blue a nice girl says, do you have a min? Thinking she was going to ask me directions or something i stopped and said "Sure Whats up" the next thing i know she whips out her Bible and starts thumping away.
Religion scares me. I wonder how often the average person gets run down by the offers of eternal salvation or the doomie doom of destruction....
i am a very spiritual person, but not through the guidelines of a church. I was baptised three years ago in order to be married to my husband and his family traditions. we had been living sinfully for five years already;) My sister and i were brought up by a free spirited sunflower loven hippy child and i remember the ceremonies of the baptism with sickness. I say this because my sister and i don't believe in these things and here we are half way mocking others beliefs by participating. But its what they wanted, i promised myself i would never go all the way with Christianity again. it rubbed my id in the wrong way....
so there i was reflecting... and the girl whips out her bible, i swear like it was a gun out of a holster in a western movie(i seriously heard "wa wa waaa" in my head), and starts bargaining my salvation. I decide to be polite and sit down seeing as i only have 15 min until class, by then i was wishing i stuck around Mr. Coopers class for a while longer... So we start talking I'm asking questions... i hate when i allow myself to talk about religion... when her associate sits down next to me. Adam says, do you know that the world is going to end in 2012? don't you want to go to heaven? let us study... I'm anxious to go to class now, and then i find that class is dismissed! damn it! damn it all to hell! Adam says, "it was meant to be, it was. "
so then after a while of continuous perspective ...I went to the god damn church! i don't know what got into me. i walk in the church and immediately people start coming up to me and shaking my hand saying "welcome sister, welcome sister". Being a bit reserved anyway,i don't know... it was bizarre. i was taken to a bible study office left with a glass of water and a bible maybe to be pondered. About 5 min roll by and just as i was thinking of escape tactics, Adam and his associate Annie come in fallowed by the guy who baptizes. AAH! So they kept trying to baptize me. i watched one being done, chick had to ware a white robe, there was water and i saw boobs. I'm all for nudity, but i guess not in church. i dont think she was aware that about 25 onlookers were looking at.thats not fair. i couldn't help but let some nervous laughter escape me here and there. When i left i hightailed it out of there literally, then in my car i clutched the steering wheel thoughts of mortality circling my mind.
the next morning i felt funky. a few mornings after i woke up from a night mare. Adam was chasing me and my son with a ladle of endlessly flowing water. as the water hit the ground it would sizzle and brake the concrete. Adam called me later that day(in reality). He wanted to know if i wanted to study, i said no. omitting the dream i explained to him how i felt , and he said it was the devil trying to get me. the devil.
I have to say, they were not bad people at all, it was just not my dig, yo. for people who believe in the bible they seem to be the newest thing out of 843 denominations of Christianity out there. i find it thoroughly interesting however that these things actually bug me. i have been spiritually sound (thank you very much) since i was fourteen years old.
2012- apocalyptic talk kinda gets to me. Like I'm gonna be really uncomfortable that year, you know? ! The Church of God :World Mission Society believes that year we will be taken by fire...
Malachi 4:1-3 " ' Surly the day is coming; it will burn like a furnace. All the arrogant and every evildoer will be stubble, and that day that is coming will set them on fire,' says the LORD Almighty. "Not a root or a branch will be left to them. But for you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. And you will go out and leap like calves released from the stall. Then you will trample down the wicked; they will be ashes under the soles of your feet on the day when i do these things,' says the LORD Almighty."
woe woe woe......
you know what I'm thinken?
Do the riotous get crispy first as well as the evil? When the calves begin the trampling, is it going to be over the partners they shared life with (brothers sisters mothers fathers)who had not been baptized?am i wicked because i cant manage to feel it that way and will i be trampled? what happens to the faith and spiritual health of the people of the church if we make it past 2012? ....and most important of all...when the calves leap from the stall do they get to fuck? i hope they get to fuck, because living forever and no fucking, doesn't sound good to me.
well better a fleshy whore than a spiritual one.....
3 comments:
wicked, wicked.
wicked? really;)
wicked? really;)
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